When it is summer time

Although Malaysia do not have a 4 season but I considered it as summer due to the extreme hot weather we are having and it is thestarting of holiday season as well so why not we call it as Summer Holiday? It feels so good to wake up pretty late for this 2 weeks and need not to be frantic about homework and how exhausted I'll be. There are tons of stuff I could do during this holiday and I swear I'll spend every moment with what I have plan and literally not going to do any study because I have been pretty and literally busy and stress about so much things lately so I need to calm and rest my brain as well. Apparently,so much studies needed to do after the holiday in preperation for the finals although it is still in couple of months away.But I'm not going to neglect my homework too. So it is fair enough don't they? Yeah. I am a high target person so I want to get good grades so badly I could study like a super geek as I did last year. But this time,I am going to focus on my studies as well as my sports. I ditched my sport career since I had my appendix operation last 13December2010 and now I am tenacious to be back on track. Not only in sports but I am going to be activate in singing and dancing as well so I'll make my life balanced enough. I miss the track so much! I missed old-self whereby I was thinner than I am right now. But most of my friends and acquaintances said I suit the way I am right now than I am back before because I looked sick,unhealthy and lack of food consumption. I'm not quite sure but I like myself back then in which I have a high self confidence than I am right now. Again,I would not find myself in such awkward circumstances all the time.

Previous picture#2009

Current picture. #2012

So much different don't they? But when I come to think of it,it does not matter how skinny,chubby or fat you are,we dont live to please others right? No one deserves to control oneself. If they cant accept the way you are,why bother being friends with them? It is not worth it because its their lost. Yeap,dropping this subject.

So much things yet so little time I have to accomplished whatever plans that I want to do. 2 weeks aint enough for a teenagers. But anyway,I cant wait for RAY Camp! I am so excited to go on hiatus. Although it is a 3days 2nights camp but it worths my money and time. Since this is my first time joining RAY Camp,so I would like to be close to God and get to know him better. Since I have so much problem,cirumstances and obstacles I am facing now but RAY Camp will help me to be close to God and understand Him more. Without God,my life would be dull,boring and in darkness and no way on earth I could experience the bittersweet life I am living in right now. I enjoy every second although there are times I feel so lonely and sad but God always gives his people obstacles because He loves us. He does.

So technically,some of the days during the holidays I will plan randomly with diferent kind of activities. But I'll try to capture tons of pictures of what I did during this 2 weeks but I cant promise either. So yeah,think I better stop here. I spend so much time to post this thing up. I dont think there will be other bloggers reading mine but typing this thing out really calms and pulled me down a bit.