Transformed

Hello again there my fellow readers. I would like to apologized for taking  pretty much long time to update as I just got back from my LSS ( Life In The Spirit Seminar) camp held in my church. These 3 days of stay-in camp really did help change me or should I say,transformed me into a whole new " Danielle ". I'll just give a brief update about my experience because surely,I don't want to bore any of my readers. So basically,I was sleeping in a room with Leinza and my other 5 friends and also Teacher Margeret while the other girls slept at the girl's dorm. Had lots of Talks and Praise & Worship throughout these 3 days I'm aware my body is totally worn out but nonetheless it was worth it. The highlight of my three days journey was certainly during the pray over session. For your information,this was my second pray over session for this year. Before it started,I told Pamela and Leinza that I don't think I will cry and I promised myself too because I don't want to look disastrous during the installation night-which frankly,I really look hideous- therefore,I did not expect to cry at all. All of us were told to close our eyes after our prayer session and we finally begin with the pray over. As they  were praying,I could feel my heart was aching and I suddenly have the urge to cry,let alone with the worship song they were singing,but I was being denial. When one of the auntie prayed over Leann,I find myself starting to cry but it was just a soft cry. Next to Leann,was Pamela. From crying,it turns out I was sobbing softly. I was forcing myself to hold back but after Pamela was prayed over,it was time for my turn already. I didn't see it coming,as the auntie touch my forehead, I no longer could hold back my tears,my heart was aching so badly,I lost my self-control and before I knew it,my sobs turns into a hysterical crying. I know I couldn't take it anymore and I almost pass out but the auntie was fast enough to support me before I fall. I couldn't explain how badly I cried but i know it was really loud and really creepy. I didn't stop for a good few minutes so a few people came to pray over me. Probably some people thought I was possessed or something because I didn't know what actually happened as well. I couldn't stop crying,in fact it got louder, I couldn't breath,I almost throw up,I was shivering,feeling cold and yeah,you can guess the rest. I was stable but still crying,so they prayed over Leinza,who was sitting next to me. Suddenly,Pamela hugged me and that made me cry more and harder,I was back to my hysterical crying so the committee came over to me and prayed for me once again then the auntie ask Pam and I to stand to give each other a hug because she was crying too.When I tried standing up,I couldn't because I was too weak so I fall instead and I had to hug her while sitting down and she said something that make me cried harder that was " Danielle,I love you. You have to be strong Dan. " Who wouldn't cry when your friend said that? Of course I would because she knew something that has happened to me. It was really a long cry but long story short,I'm pretty sure it was the Holy Spirit that came to me. To help me with my suffering,the hatred that I have,the unforgiveness that I have yet to forgive,the hurt that I've hurt, and technically,everything that I've hold back or kept deep inside me. But what I learned was,God will never leave you alone despite all the sins you have committed,how hurtful you are,how many problems you have in life and everything possible that happened in life. What is life without struggles and obstacles?

Regarding the title of my post,I really want to transform into a better person. Uncle Neil told us a lot of inspiring and motivating story. I'm not going to share it here though,I apologized. I'm afraid it might get sensitive and all so I better don't.

At the girl's dorm