Speaking of marriage

I wasn't sure what is wrong with everyone around me but lately,they've been talking about marriage these days. For good sack,I'm still a teenagers and I'm form four! Few aunties been asking and talking to me about it. But I could only recall one conversation :

Chinese aunt: Wahh,so liang moi already ahh

Me: Hahahhah thank you!

C.A: Why don't you get married to a chinese? (all of a sudden)

Me:*awkward* Hahaahah yeahhhhhh will see. Maybe a sino?

C.A: *Laughing so loud,you have no idea* Hahahahhaahahahhaha aiyooooo. Good. Good choice

and the conversation goes on...

A Chinese or sino kadazan will do. But preferably a sino kadazan :) omg I have no idea whats wrong with me talking bout the whole future husband thing. 

Speaking of marriage,my first cousin is getting married enggage soon! I did mention about them in my previous post. So anyway,I'm really happy for them! Both are my cousins,just from different side. They've been together for 10 or 11 years if I'm not mistaken. So right now,I do believe that even high school sweethearts could get married,if they are lucky, or even former enemy could fall in love and get married. I said this because this was what happen to both my cousin. They used to hate each other during high school but when they were in four 3 or 4,they found themselves falling for each other and ever since that time,they've been together until today. In fact,they've decided to tie the knot after all those years! Its so romantic and cute,I am smiling right now. It sounds so chessy but I love it. Almost all my aunt and cousin teased me about being my cousin's maid of honor(not bridesmaid) and I couldn't believe it because I'm still young and a high school student.All they said was 'Its not like they are getting married this year or maybe next year.' Yeah whatever,its not like I'm gonna believe it.

Goodbye November

Good morning everyone! Finally I could find the time to update-I apologized for the long delay-after I got back from Miri and other events I attend. So many pictures to upload but somehow,my blog restricted me from uploading. It really pissed me off so I decided to upload it in my facebook account. So Miri trip was fun because I get to try all those delicious,mouth-watering and cheap food! you have no idea how much I ate because it was just too delicious to resist. Its like in a day, I just had to eat 3 meals a day and some dessert,otherwise I'll be feeling really hungry and be all cranky like baby. My goodness,I get really annoying when I'm cranky and my mum never stop telling me how annoying I was.But too bad,I can't change my personalities(I really tried a lot but attempt failed) so you had to deal with it or otherwise. With all this eating,that explains why I put on some weight  and expect people to tell me how chubby I got but instead,my cousin's first sentence she said when she saw me was " Omg Dan,you lost more weight and got a little skinnier" and I'm like what? But my mum never failed to warn me whenever i'm about to open the refrigerator and she'll be like "Stop opening the refrigerator. Look at your face,chubby already" So my mum really helps a lot when it comes to losing weight and resisting food :) Right now i'm feeling much better after doing my working out everyday and cutting down carbohydrates. But I'll never ever 'resist' food after this  and ended up not eating the whole. All I'm going to do is cutting down the intake and enjoy the food :)

I can't wait for tonight to go back to my nearby-kampung and reunite with my cousins! There'll be a rosary prayer for my late uncle so might probably going to sleepover with all my cousins(married,soon-to-be-engage and the singletons). It really has been a while we all slept together under one roof since my late uncle's death which was 8 months ago. Will be heading to town with them and mum to do some preparation for the upcoming engagement like cake,dress and all tomorrow. Wouldn't have to worry about money or shopping because I won't do some shopping tomorrow. I'm really broke at this point,you have no idea! Hopefully in my upcoming trip,my dad will spare more pocket money for some shopping spree! Speaking of which,I can't  wait to surprise my little cousin during her competition in Bukit Jalil (although I meet her almost everyday) because she doesn't know we will be there to support her,oh and also to do some shopping. I was really surprise when my mum told me we're going to KL in 2 weeks time. Which is a good thing. Thought I will be stuck in KK and do my Christmas shopping here( KK stuff are so limited and most people shopped almost at the same store so to avoid buying the same stuff,I rather not shop here).So I must go out with cousins or friends before I leave,because by the time I'll back here,I'll be very busy for the Christmas preparation. It's so unbelievable to acknowledge that Christmas is in less than a month! Time really flew so fast. In fact,today happens to be the last day of the month November. I'll be a senior too in a month time. It so creepy because the fact that I'll leaving high school and pursue my studies in somewhere out of Malaysia someday and living alone without my family,its too overwhelming. 

p/s: Won't be putting any pictures in my blog until I figure out how to fix it.

Take note

Haven't been updating my blog for almost 2 weeks or so. Will try to do so later or tomorrow or probably next week. Plus,I'm not expecting anyone to read my blog though but the number of viewers has gradually increase ever since the last time I blogged. Not to mention,my laptop is being a pain in the ass right now. So,please be patient aite?

Another casual day

Good morning everyone! :) I woke up 10 minutes earlier before my alarm due to my sickness. I thought I would be feeling much better than I did yesterday but apparently this sickness is taking it tolls over me. Hopefully I'll be feeling much better tonight. Finally,I am able to have my healthy breakfast once again from almost 2 weeks of eating carbs for breakfast. Had oat and lots of water just now. As for my lunch,I might cook something light or probably skip it cause whatever that comes into my mouth tasted tasteless! Sad case.

I don't feel like going out or anything today. Lock myself up at home are much better for my current condition so might doing some productive stuff like doing some chores,learn a song to play on piano,might gonna study,exercise and watching tv. I don't know what else can i do apart from these few things so whatever.

I'm looking forward for tomorrow's plan! Hopefully it wont rain and jeopardise the whole thing. Going for a picnic with all my cousins,aunties and uncles(all father's siblings and family) somewhere out of town. It's definitely going to be hectic cause there will be more than 20 people going. My father's siblings is already 8 people itself,what more to plus their family? You can do the maths now. I've never been there before but they said it is a very chilly and peaceful place and there's a crystal clear river beside and you can swim there as well! If I am not being a lazy pig to charge my camera,I'll definitely make an entry about the picnic. Will see then.

Good day ahead

I know I have been gone for a few days which was very unusual to me but hey,I'm back! Before I start on telling about my day,I would love to wish everyone a very Happy Deepavali especially to my Indian friends :) Didn't attend any open house like I used to every year but it doesn't matter tho,I still get to enjoy some Indian food today! So anyway, it's a public holiday and all government servants are on their holiday as well so my auntie(boy's side) decided to come over to my nearby-kampung to 'merisik'(as what they call it in Malaysia) my cousin today. The couple happens to be my cousins. Girl is from dad's side and Boy is from mum's side which was technically funny because they are both related to me yet they are getting married soon. Nothing much about it but it was overall a good day and well spend with all my cousins especially with the girls. From laughing,to eating and enjoy the Indian+Kadazan food,watching movies in the room,bullying my little male cousin,hyperventilating,shared one container of strawberry cheese ice cream,driving and dinner. What a day spend with these annoying brats :D As for the driving part,yes I know it is not a big deal to anyone but to my cousin., She finally have the guts and confidence to drive out of Putatan and Penampang  after a few months of getting her license! But hell,I was freaking out,panicked and still traumatized (after whatever happened to shawne and also my family) I sat still and quiet the whole journey. Not literally quiet but I don't talk or laugh much. The whole journey was totally tense it freaked me out sometimes. My cousin is totally hilarious I tell you. For the sack of eating,she is willing to drive out of her restricted area I shall assumed,and I am proud of her! Finally we are able to hang out,go kareoke,jogging and you name it all without worrying about transportation and all. I must admit, for the last few years we had to cancelled whatever we planned just for the sack of transportation issue. So I guess if I have to go out with my friends or what,I can easily look for her now but that depends if she's in kk or kuching cause she's currently taking foundation in Kuching.

Oh dear me, I'm feeling so so so so sick today. Sore throat and slight cold which I dislike. I don't want to fall sick especially this time around and spoil my appetite and taste bud before I can enjoy the good food in Miri. And speaking of food,I know I haven't mention this since the last time I posted about how nausea I got when  I see or think of food but lately,since last week,I've been eating like a mad pig and the good thing is I enjoy them. Even when I'm bloated,I still tend to stuff food inside my mouth like nobody's business. Someone used to tell me "Go and eat la. Food is important. Getting slimmer is another story" something like this. If you're still reading my blog daily,then I'm definitely sure you must be laughing your ass off right now and I must thank you for telling me that :) So back to the story,don't you find how ironic is that when at one point,I can not eat the whole day without getting hungry and next,I can't resist food. Well I guess I'm about to have my menstrual cycle pretty soon that cause me to eat this much like a mad pig.

Everything changed.Blossomed.

I didn't see it coming. The thought about having 'this' feeling never encountered me before. Never. At all. But you changed everything a month ago. Yes,one hell of a month I had this feeling,damn it. Can I just say it straight to the point? What if its obvious or what if this will jeopardise the whole thing? No,I do not want or wish it to ever happen. During the last 30/31 days,I tried giving up but my attempt failed all the time. When I tried,there's always one fact about you that made me give in. The hell was I thinking man? The more I wish to forget about it,the more it haunt me. It's so annoying and pissing me off I just want to go on the Mount Kinabalu and scream my lungs out. Well not literally though,I was just being exaggerating anyway. At this very point,I literally do not know what to do and feel about it. I just wish that in a blink of eyes,I could let it go and forget about it but at the same time,I'm scared if you would have the same thing about what I felt if I already forgotten about it. Maybe I should just go with the flaw and awaits what the future holds?

Sweet-18

Date: 5 November 2012

Time: 7.30pm-onwards

Venue: Granddad's

Last Monday was my brother's 18 birthday. It was the same day as my late grandma's death anniversary. So anyway, the party wasn't celebrated like any 18 year old girl and boy celebrated their but it was just a plain ordinary celebration with all the family and relatives around. Frankly speaking, I enjoyed myself very much that night.Young and older cousins,aunties and uncles really made my night! Mum was sporting enough to grant my wish that is to serve sun quick oranges+vodka.. The food was, Oh lard you have no idea, was super delicious and satisfying I ate 2 or 3 plates that night. Imagine how much calories I gained! I just don't know how to express or justify the night but all I know was I got tipsy at the end of the night. Mum was like " Danielle,you better stop drinking. Look at your face,you are so red! And noisy! " Thank God mum was okay I was tipsy. Its better than me being drunk right? It was very odd of me to sleep early that night because usually I'll be all up till dawn but that night I slept off around 11.30? There's a possibility i wasn't tipsy but drunk. Pardon me,I am so lazy right now to elaborate more on this so I guess I'll upload some pictures then.

Family photo #1 : I look pretty awkward here

Family photo #2

Part of the noisy crowd/cousins.

Cousin snapped this without any warning so I made random expression and this was the outcome

I somewhat like this picture. p/s:yes,I have a long tongue

You might think something negative when look at this picture but they were actually wrestling on the couch

3rd Death Anniversary

Exactly 3 years ago at this exact day,my lovely and beloved grandma left us peacefully to be with God. 3 years felt like nothing. Went to the cemetery with the whole family to visit grandma's grave during All Souls and during the anniversary. Did all the cleaning,light up the candle,gave her flowers and offer her prayers. I was staring and the picture and dates and I was shocked to see the year she left us. Didn't realize time passed pretty fast without realizing. She left in 2009 when I was still in Form 1 and now I'm about the enter Form 5. It's not the thought of entering form 5 sadden me but the thought that grandma left us sadden me. I miss talking and hugging her so much. I miss her cooking,I can assure you, she's the best cook I have ever met! I literally miss everything about her. But the funny part is,I did not shed any tears or feel sad on her anniversary day at all,when I think should,I suppose so? Or should I be happy because she won't have to suffer with her sickness anymore? One way or another,I am very grateful to have given the opportunity to meet her and to be taken care by her ever since I was born,to taste her cooking, to be taught how to be good and kind person, to be one of the grandchildren in this great and loving family,to be born having a chinese blood in me and the list goes on. The last time I cried thinking about her was in June and that was long ago I suppose. I just hope that one of these days,I able to dream about her,to remember her voice,personalities,looks and everything. But one thing I love and appreciate the most is Grandma's death brought our family closer than what we had before. Every moment we spend was precious enough to be cherished forever,even with the physical present of Grandma but we know she is present in our heart forever <3

" Happy 3rd anniversary grandma. We love and misses you always. Look after us and bless us all from heaven okay grandma? Thank you for the unconditional love and care you have poured  out to every one of us. Rest In Peace grandma ;) "

p/s: Did not bring my camera along so there's not quite a number of picture taken.

I don't know what this was called but my bro baked it in his college and it tasted so delicious!

Chocolate and vanilla fillings. More like an Ice-cream than a cream.

How hideous I look after workout session.

Camwhore,again

Totally agree!