Uncertain mood

Now that I am very aware of the upcoming final exam that is starting on next week,my mood seem to change. I noticed this before. Whenever I am in my exam mood,I tend to be in a very uncertain mood. For example,I get irritated,annoyed and kind of dislike a person but at the same time I don't feel what I felt. You know that feeling? Plus, I get super annoyed and pissed off pretty easily in every circumstances.Even a small thing and I already felt like killing or stepping someone. I'll tend to be very lazy as well to do anything .To even move. Girl,seriously?

As for now, I really do not know what to feel. Sometimes I just wish I could go on a very top hill/mountain,alone, and scream my heart out. I don't even know why I'd even want to do this but how was I suppose to know when my mood changes every minute if possible. I just wish I could just simply express what I am feeling at the moment without thinking who is/are going to read it and without thinking about the consequences.

What I can say for now is I am mentally tired and also stressed up. Seriously. I am stress about my exam I cant even explain how. Sometimes,only exercising and laughing could help me take things out of my mind. But certainly I can't be doing it 24/7 right? oh lord why. I think I should pray more for often to help me to deal with my studies.

What I really need now is alcohol. But the least of it,Coffee Bean's Mocha will do. Will try to get it this Saturday if I am going out.